tak dapat tangkap gambar due2 atas basikal.


walaupun sakit bontot,
duk kat atas boncengan tu,
tapi seronok~~

oh yeah~~

exam finished literally half an hour ago.

waaaaaah~~
saya suka.
sebab dah habis exam. kenapa saya suka?
sebab orang lain tak habis lagi.

lantak la result camne.
saya dah tak kesah.
saya nak graduate dan keluar dari UK secepat yang mungkin~!

saya rindu Malaysia.
saya rindu Mak, Ayah, besan, kokna, kakmah, tina, mya, ayid, abu,
saya nak tengok kucing2 yang saya tak penah jumpe lagi~~
saya nak tengok abu dah besar dah pandai cakap dan baca english.

saya nak catch up balik sume2.
nak try hidup dah kawen kat Malaysia pulak.
actually sampai sekarang saya tak caye saya dah kawen~~

waaaaaaaaaahhhh..
dah kawen, kene jadi matured.
kene lawat sedara mara 2 2 pihak pulak nanti.
raya nanti kat mane?
kelantan? batu pahat? muar? batu arang?

ngaaaaa~
tetibe takut nak balik Malaysia.

nak tak nak kene enjoy life kat sini dulu,
then baru balik Malaysia~

OH YEAH~~!

Dear Friends,
I love you.
I do.
but when you did something unimaginable,
intolerable disgusting things,
then, I think maybe we should consider again, should we be friend anymore?

Is there such thing as breaking up with your friends?
What should I say?
"Hey Friend, let's break up"

Can I unfriend a friend?
In fact, is there such thing as unfriend?

Friends,
you know what you did is wrong,
can you imagine how or where you would be
when things not going smoothly as what you plan?

You can say that, things getting better after you did this and that.
But do you really think what you plan can become reality?
Please please wake up Friend!!
Don't be stupid~!
When you are not in the same continent, then you'll see.
Who the real evil is?

Who's the real devil?

Think. Friends.

I just randomly want to share about my previous relationships with my blog readers.

First Boyfriend, Apit
I met my first boyfriend during my high school year, at the end of my form 3 year.
I called him during school holiday and since then we were hooked up.
He confessed to me that he liked me and asked me to be his girlfriend.

We were put in the same class when we were form 4,
but on the same year he was transferred to a boarding school in Kuala Pilah,
and our relationship since then was highly depended to phone call bases.
And since mobiles were not very popular during my time,
our relationship become thinner and weaken.

Then come my second boyfriend, Aie.

Second Boyfriend, Aie
I think I was a nerdy school girl when I was form 5.
People not usually go to evening preparation class slot,
but everyday I went to my class to study for final exams.
I met Aie there.

During this term, Apit and I still in a relationship
but not in a good term, since we were far from each other.

At this time, Aie just broke up with his girlfriend.
We just got along really well at those time.
But we were not officially in relationship until the last day of school.
And I broke up with Apit after that.
He was really pissed off with me.

Aie and I were in relationship for almost 4 years.
I really thought we were going to get married one day,
but it seems that we were not meant for each other.
We broke up during my second year since we were too far from each other.
Australia and UK.

My heart was crushed for the situation.
I just couldn't get over Aie.
He was my life during this 4 years.
I even thought that no one can ever replace him in my heart.
He was my everything.

Then, came Amahl, my best friend, knocking my crushed heart.

Rebound (boy)friend, Amahl
We both were very close friends.
He was my college classmate.
We always went back home together since he and I live in the same town.
He always help me whenever I need him.
He was the one who comfort me when Aie flew to Australia to further his study.

Amahl went to UK during winter holiday when I was in second year.
We were both become really close that time.
I almost asked him to be my boyfriend,
but I hold that thought because I was thinking about his current girlfriend.
It was unfair for her if I just take Amahl from her.

And I know how it hurt when you are betrayed by someone.

From winter to spring,
we kept calling, yming, and texting each other.
Till one day, I stopped.

I asked him to finish his unfinish business first.
Till then, I will contact him.

I told to him this because I can't picture myself beside him for next 20 years.
Mak doesn't like him that much.
He still with his girlfriend even after all the feelings we have shared.
And he and I are not in the same wavelength at all.

He is rich. I am not.
Our family take religious things very seriously,
and for my opinion his family very relax at these things.
I don't think my family and his family will mix that well to each other.

And at that time, I think I like the guy who were beside me at that time.
(We were in the internet cafe at the time I was yming, asking Amahl to stop communicate for a while)
We were in Frankfurt, German.
There, finally I met my husband, Shazni.

My one and only beloved husband, Abang Shazni
We were collegemate.
He was Ika's classmate.

And that's all I can tell about him.

Until I met him again during our Euro trip last spring.
We become close from there.
I went to Manchester because of Hujan's gig while the real reason is to meet him again.
The next day after Hujan's gig, we have barbecue with other KPM mates.

And during the barbecue eve, he proposed to me.
He said, he does not want to waste anything because of boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.
It's better for him to waste time and money to his wife, instead of girlfriend.

And I accepted him~!

I did not know him that well actually.
But I knew we have the same vision.
We want to have a happy family, with Allah's blessing,
raising our children in Islamic environment,
and nothing can be more perfect than achieving them together!

He said that everything is perfect.
He got the money, and I know my family will be happy for my choice.

I called my (younger) sister about this,
and she gave the idea to Mak.
Mak asked me to call her later that night,
and asked me to get married in our home country~!

I was really shocked by the news,
and I was all over the moon.
I remember telling myself, that that day was the happiest day of my life.

I miss him dearly~